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Thanks guys.

Today was v eventful, in a bad way. Haha. I had an ANXIETY ATTACK cos i was too depressed for a past 2 days and i surpressed everything. It happened this morning.

I reached sch depressed then i sat alone in e canteen while waiting for e assembly then i started to cry abit. Ryan came to look for me after his training and then i started to sob like mad. Everyone was going for assembly while ryan n i sat at e table. I cried and cried and cried then i started to have breathing difficulties. My right hand tensed up so bad i couldnt control it, slowly my body tensed up too. After ard half an hour (i dont really know e exact time), i started to see "things" on e canteen table. I totally freaked out then sobbed like mad agn. I couldnt speak, i didnt know what to say. Ryan was freaking out too. He was there e whole time then kept messaging my right hand so it wont tense up. When it didnt stop for awhile more, he asked someone to call a teacher to help. A female teacher came, i dont really know what's her name but she was really concerned and everything. All i rmb was tt she gave me her hand so my right hand wont b like b gripping itself. After awhile we went to e sick bay, i was still v scared. Sobbing was on and off, and my right hand was really holding e female teacher's hand v tightly, but i couldnt say anything to her. When i layed down on e bed, they switched off e lights then it came back agn. I was so scared i started to sob like mad agn. Ryan was freaking out agn. He was super worried (SORRY FRIEND!). It seems like e word passed on v fast, soon my form teacher Mr Ong came to see how i was doing but i was still sobbing like mad, both vice principals came too. Then a counsellor came to talk to me, i felt a great rush of warmth. I dont know why cos i dont even know her but i was really relieved and everything. After awhile she took me out for a walk and i could talk agn. My mum came to bring me home but i was feeling insecure so i asked her to bring me to e place where she meditates. E aunty there talked to me and i felt so much better. Then i came home to SLP! =)

I want to get over u. I know i can. I dont feel so shitty anymore. NO MORE DEPRESSED VENETIA! HYPER ME IS BACK! MUAHAHAHAHAHA!

Thanks ryan for being there e WHOLE TIME. He skipped his lessons for me. Really really want to thank u for being sucha WONDERFUL friend. I really appreciate it.

v("P) vena